Relationships

I started thinking about relationships the other day. Mainly because more and more people in my life are getting engaged, getting married, having children and I am still just as obnoxious, free-spirited and drunk as I was at 21. It's not that the outside forces are influencing me but they are making me look at my life a little harder than I usually would look at it. Or at least..look at relationships.
There are relationships in your life that excite you. They make you feel free and happy. They take you to new places, new adventures, make you try new things and look at life a little differently. They often are very short encounters and don't last very long. 
Then, there are relationships that teach you things. Those are usually the close, serious relationships that last 1-3 years, maybe a little more. They often teach you the things you don't want to go through again. They teach you boundaries, expectations and compromise. They teach you sadness, heartbreak and binge drinking - this may just be for me. They teach you what kind of partner you don't want in life. There are those that bring you back to familiarity. They understand you and guide you. They lead you onto a straight path and make you aware of wrong and right. They may not excite you, but they usually set up the groundwork for an amazing friendship.

And then there is the one you have with yourself. The most fabulous and lasting one of them all.
I often wonder why I may not have someone who loves me and understands me for me. Sometimes I think that my free spirit doesn't allow me to ground myself to any one person for long periods of time. If I can find someone who loves the me that my family and friends love, well then..I would be the happiest girl in the world.

But throughout all my thinking and analytical writing..I realize why I am in a standstill in most of my romantic encounters. As Carrie Bradshaw would have put it..“I’m looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can’t-live-without-each-other love.'”

The struggle is real

Okay, I am seeing a lot more people in my life get married because they feel like they have to. This isn't about anyone in particular, so before anyone gets their panties in a bunch, let me just specify that I really don't give a shit if you do.

If I based my opinion on just one person's life, I'd be a shit talker. I analyze statistical data as well as pay attention to everyone around me and so far I have encountered several women and men alike, who are marrying or married because they feel like that's what's left to do. ..Uhm, left to do? I'm assuming they have skydived, gotten tattoos, traveled the world, helped the homeless, did community service, opened their own business, bought new cars, gotten out of debt, backpacked through Europe, moved out of mommy's house and established themselves. I'm assuming.. Oh wait, you've done none of those things? You've only partied and slept around? Oh, I apologize. You're ready!

Listen up ladies and gents. The only thing you HAVE to do in life is die. That is inevitable. No matter what you do, that will happen. The rest is your choice, It is totally up to you how your life is lived. You don't have to work, you don't have to drink, you don't have to drive, get married, have babies, party..whatever. You don't have to. The difference is IF YOU WANT TO! 

I want to get shitfaced every weekend, so I do. I want to get from point A to point B without sweating balls, so I drive. I want to have my own place and be independent so that's why I work and live apart from my mommy. I want my own freedom and I want to be selfish, so I don't get married and have kids yet until I am ready. See? There is a huge difference between a want and a need. 

Also, side note. Why are some of you counting your age? Is there an expiration date on marrying? If so, I'm royally fucked sideways.

So therefore, YOLO!

You Only Live Once! Stop letting parents, friends or enemies decide your life for you. They aren't the ones who have to deal with your whiny husband or bitchy wife for the rest of their life. You are! So fuck what anyone else thinks and do what makes you happy!

Hump Day Confessions

So I decided to just do the damn thing and do the actual blog post that was meant for hump day. Confessions or something like that. Okay, I totally confess I drink a lot and don't even care about my liver function. With drinking come new friends, old friends, sex friends, best friends, great conversations, funny experiences, jokes, bad decisions and good memories. My bartender said she put me on the liver donor list, so I'm totally good for two lifetimes. Bless her sweet soul. Don't stop the party!

...running around yesterday made me realize I need to go back to gym. My body enjoys me working out although my mind really wants to watch Netflix. I feel the sexiest when I am in the gym and I do like the way I feel leaving after a good workout.

...either that, or I need to fatten and lazy up my friends and family so they quit making me do shit. 

...I think I am somewhat allergic to bullshit. It's really refreshing to hang out with people who say exactly what is on their minds. Recently, I have been eliminating the negativity in my life and this includes anyone who causes any kind of drama...and by drama, I don't mean like normal crap that life throws our way. I mean the legit "he said she said" high school bullshit or racist, inconsiderate shit talking drama.

Tell 'em, Sweet Brown!

...and remember, tomorrow is Thirsty Thursday! Stay thirsty, my friends!

Happy Hump Day Y'all!!!