Hello my dear bloggers. I am not having a "myself" day today. I haven't been feeling like myself for the past couple of weeks and I don't particularly like this feeling. I got to thinking about relationships, love, respect and moral fiber these past few weeks. Talking to my friends and family about love, I still after 11 years of dating have not figured it out. Of course, love is different things to different people. Some may see respect as loving someone, some may see putting someone first as love, some are more emotionally challenged and can only love but not show. There are different variations to the effect love has on us. Me personally, I feel love with everything. When I fall in love, I want to be able to say that this person completes me. Two lives forming one is very hard to find because people lately are just looking out for their own interests and have become too selfish to put anyone else first.
Now with that being said, I've done a lot of thinking and have realized that while I am looking for a relationship and looking for the love that I want and need, I am also working on myself and letting go of a lot of things I should have let go before. For example: feelings for my ex, constant put downs by my step-dad, past hurts that I've let build my wall for me. My mother always used to say "everyone comes with baggage but it depends on how much you care for that person to help them unpack theirs." I think of it differently. People should not put their baggage on you, but nurture you past those fears and insecurities. I'm not saying someone should try to change you, but if you're willing to change, why not help you do it?
Speaking to a friend at coffee last night, I've realized I may be looking at relationships somewhat the wrong way. It's not completely wrong, but there are some things I could definitely improve upon and that was pointed out to me last night. Gotta love when you have friends who tell you how it is. I like that. :-)
I may refine this blog more tonight and add more to it, so if you're following, keep a lookout!
Toodles!
I never would have gotten anywhere by following rules
Hello dear bloggers. I haven't blogged in a few days. I've been going to the chiropractor. I have to go three times a week for 4 weeks. Apparently that accident really threw me out of alignment and I am hurting and sore all over. The first time I went was absolutely painful afterwards. The second time I went felt a little better, and today I go for the third time. I went to bed last night at 2am, and woke up at 6am so I could use a nap. If I misspell anything, it would not be on purpose at all. You guys should know by now how gramatically Hitler-ish I am. :)
Friend dept: Love my friends. Many of my Saudis are coming back and I cannot wait. I really miss them and absolutely miss spending time with them!
Job dept: I still deeply love my job. It gives me a sense of purpose and my co-workers are the funniest people ever. I enjoy working here.
Love dept: Let's not talk about that one this time around, shall we?
So that's it. My current update. Toodles!!!
Friend dept: Love my friends. Many of my Saudis are coming back and I cannot wait. I really miss them and absolutely miss spending time with them!
Job dept: I still deeply love my job. It gives me a sense of purpose and my co-workers are the funniest people ever. I enjoy working here.
Love dept: Let's not talk about that one this time around, shall we?
So that's it. My current update. Toodles!!!
I carry you in my heart
I haven't written in a while. I know I don't really have a lot of followers, but I still keep writing. Maybe it just keeps me sane. The job is still going well. I'm appreciating having to work for something every day and I hope that it stays like this for a while. I still haven't looked for a teaching job. It's more nerves than anything else. I am putting it off, but eventually I will have to get my head out of my butt and do it.
I am thinking of starting another project. Maybe use this blog to promote things. Like fashion, or make up..jewelry, arts and crafts; something I'm good at.
As far as the friend department, I have the same ones I've always had minus some of the fake ones that tricked me and made me think they were real. Zerina and I have become really close and I really appreciate that. We are even moving in together. 4 more days to that!!!
Family department: War has begun! Step-dad is back to his horrible, Hitler, cynical ways. His tumor has shrunk. Yay. But his ego, pride and douchebaggeriness has increased. Not appreciating that at all. I had an accident in his car on the way to pick up Anel. Someone hit me in the back, and slid me into the car in front of me. Not my fault at all. (minor scratches on the car). I got yelled at, threatened, called names. People still don't realize how that makes me feel or has made me feel like for the past 20 years, but I'm tough. I'll make it through.
Love department: I really like my boyfriend. That's about it on that subject. :)
I am thinking of starting another project. Maybe use this blog to promote things. Like fashion, or make up..jewelry, arts and crafts; something I'm good at.
As far as the friend department, I have the same ones I've always had minus some of the fake ones that tricked me and made me think they were real. Zerina and I have become really close and I really appreciate that. We are even moving in together. 4 more days to that!!!
Family department: War has begun! Step-dad is back to his horrible, Hitler, cynical ways. His tumor has shrunk. Yay. But his ego, pride and douchebaggeriness has increased. Not appreciating that at all. I had an accident in his car on the way to pick up Anel. Someone hit me in the back, and slid me into the car in front of me. Not my fault at all. (minor scratches on the car). I got yelled at, threatened, called names. People still don't realize how that makes me feel or has made me feel like for the past 20 years, but I'm tough. I'll make it through.
Love department: I really like my boyfriend. That's about it on that subject. :)
July
So happy news: I got a job! It's not a teaching job, but it's still a job and it still gets me where I need to go. To be honest, I haven't looked for jobs since I graduated. I know, I know, bad me! But I will eventually. I just have to figure out if I am going to move or not soon so I know whether to even bother looking for one.
I am working as a dispatcher/office person/anything they need me to be at Greenline Express Inc. It's a trucking company and I absolutely love my coworkers and my bosses. They are fun to be around and just amazing people all the way around. So that's it on the job front.
Family is doing OK. Step-dad is still recovering from everything. He goes to chemotherapy once every two weeks and that's usually when his health disintegrates, but other than that he is doing great. They are going to try to do a CT scan the next time he goes to chemo to see if the cancer is pulling back from his liver or if it's metastasized.
Love department, I am dating someone new. We have been together a month and we like each others company. That's about all I am going to say on that subject.
Friend department, I still have my oldies who are sticking by me no matter what. Some have recently left my life and honestly, good riddance. I got to see Monica, Allie and Susana; we had a small La Garriga reunion which just made me miss all of my friends in Spain. :-( I need to visit soon!
Anyways, just a short blog to let you guys know what is going on in my life lately. :) Toodles til next time.
I am working as a dispatcher/office person/anything they need me to be at Greenline Express Inc. It's a trucking company and I absolutely love my coworkers and my bosses. They are fun to be around and just amazing people all the way around. So that's it on the job front.
Family is doing OK. Step-dad is still recovering from everything. He goes to chemotherapy once every two weeks and that's usually when his health disintegrates, but other than that he is doing great. They are going to try to do a CT scan the next time he goes to chemo to see if the cancer is pulling back from his liver or if it's metastasized.
Love department, I am dating someone new. We have been together a month and we like each others company. That's about all I am going to say on that subject.
Friend department, I still have my oldies who are sticking by me no matter what. Some have recently left my life and honestly, good riddance. I got to see Monica, Allie and Susana; we had a small La Garriga reunion which just made me miss all of my friends in Spain. :-( I need to visit soon!
Anyways, just a short blog to let you guys know what is going on in my life lately. :) Toodles til next time.
Life as of now
On the job hunt, it hasn't been very easy but I have two summer job prospects and as soon as I get some cash-flow, I am applying for teaching jobs headfirst. I WILL prevail. I am nervous to be a first year teacher but so excited to meet my first students and teach them things! So that's for the job department.
As far as the life department goes, my step-dad had his first chemo treatment and other than a few mild side effects, he is doing well. This week he is off the chemicals and medication so his body can rest. He looks a lot better and is more peppy than he has been so thank you everyone for your prayers and thoughts with us at this hard time. I know a lot of you may not know what is going on, and I don't want to blog about it. Just know that every thought, every prayer, and every word has been with us and has helped. You are doing some good. :)
Friend department: I reconnected with a few older friends, which is always a good thing as well as made some new ones along the way. I miss Spain for many reasons, but one of those reasons is my roomie and friend Susana. We've had some awesome talks at night and haven't been able to have those pillow talks since we've been back, but our time is coming!
Love department: You have to kiss a lot of frogs right? I refuse to settle so therefore it seems like I'm being too picky. Since I've been back from Spain, I've been enjoying my single life and wish to grow more as a person and a woman before I commit myself to that "institution" we all call a happy relationship. Maybe one day I'll meet my prince, but I think he's lost, stubborn and refuses to ask for directions. Just my luck!!! :)
This is my life in a nutshell since I've been back. I will post more when I need to chat or just feel like blogging again. Toodles til then, my dear followers.
As far as the life department goes, my step-dad had his first chemo treatment and other than a few mild side effects, he is doing well. This week he is off the chemicals and medication so his body can rest. He looks a lot better and is more peppy than he has been so thank you everyone for your prayers and thoughts with us at this hard time. I know a lot of you may not know what is going on, and I don't want to blog about it. Just know that every thought, every prayer, and every word has been with us and has helped. You are doing some good. :)
Friend department: I reconnected with a few older friends, which is always a good thing as well as made some new ones along the way. I miss Spain for many reasons, but one of those reasons is my roomie and friend Susana. We've had some awesome talks at night and haven't been able to have those pillow talks since we've been back, but our time is coming!
Love department: You have to kiss a lot of frogs right? I refuse to settle so therefore it seems like I'm being too picky. Since I've been back from Spain, I've been enjoying my single life and wish to grow more as a person and a woman before I commit myself to that "institution" we all call a happy relationship. Maybe one day I'll meet my prince, but I think he's lost, stubborn and refuses to ask for directions. Just my luck!!! :)
This is my life in a nutshell since I've been back. I will post more when I need to chat or just feel like blogging again. Toodles til then, my dear followers.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)