Without struggle, there is no progress

Dear bloggers,
I visited quite a lot of websites about weight loss trying to get myself into some sort of routine. Health kick has official kicked in and I am sick and tired of the fat girl in the mirror. I've got a lot of information but now I am trying to space out that information and create actual knowledge of fitness. This crap is hard. Whoever said weight loss was easy has been a single digit their whole life. I visited a couple of blogs as well, learning a lot about different people and getting some motivation to continue on my path. I saw this quote on a blog and I absolutely loved it. It is also the title of this post. "Without struggle, there is no progress." Well, if this is true, I should be well on my way to progress. :)

All this time I thought I wanted a workout buddy, but after seeing myself sweat like a pig and look as gross as possible, I think I'm better off working out alone. Yesterday I did another 3 miles, and sweated something horrible! You know the most horrifying things that can happen to you in the gym is looking retarded in front of a cute guy or in front of people who "know what they are doing". Well I ended up with both. I dropped the TV remote, while running, in front of two girls who looked like models. No sweat, no nasty hair, perfection in a body? Yeah, those heifers. I ended up looking clumsy. Then, a really cute guy came to run in the gym and I drop my cell phone, again while running. Horror!

Anyways, I'm going again today.
Toodles!

Feelings..you either eat them or write them

Hello my dear bloggers. I am not having a "myself" day today. I haven't been feeling like myself for the past couple of weeks and I don't particularly like this feeling. I got to thinking about relationships, love, respect and moral fiber these past few weeks. Talking to my friends and family about love, I still after 11 years of dating have not figured it out. Of course, love is different things to different people. Some may see respect as loving someone, some may see putting someone first as love, some are more emotionally challenged and can only love but not show. There are different variations to the effect love has on us. Me personally, I feel love with everything. When I fall in love, I want to be able to say that this person completes me. Two lives forming one is very hard to find because people lately are just looking out for their own interests and have become too selfish to put anyone else first.
Now with that being said, I've done a lot of thinking and have realized that while I am looking for a relationship and looking for the love that I want and need, I am also working on myself and letting go of a lot of things I should have let go before. For example: feelings for my ex, constant put downs by my step-dad, past hurts that I've let build my wall for me. My mother always used to say "everyone comes with baggage but it depends on how much you care for that person to help them unpack theirs." I think of it differently. People should not put their baggage on you, but nurture you past those fears and insecurities. I'm not saying someone should try to change you, but if you're willing to change, why not help you do it?
Speaking to a friend at coffee last night, I've realized I may be looking at relationships somewhat the wrong way. It's not completely wrong, but there are some things I could definitely improve upon and that was pointed out to me last night. Gotta love when you have friends who tell you how it is. I like that. :-)

I may refine this blog more tonight and add more to it, so if you're following, keep a lookout!

Toodles!

I never would have gotten anywhere by following rules

Hello dear bloggers. I haven't blogged in a few days. I've been going to the chiropractor. I have to go three times a week for 4 weeks. Apparently that accident really threw me out of alignment and I am hurting and sore all over. The first time I went was absolutely painful afterwards. The second time I went felt a little better, and today I go for the third time. I went to bed last night at 2am, and woke up at 6am so I could use a nap. If I misspell anything, it would not be on purpose at all. You guys should know by now how gramatically Hitler-ish I am. :)

Friend dept: Love my friends. Many of my Saudis are coming back and I cannot wait. I really miss them and absolutely miss spending time with them!

Job dept: I still deeply love my job. It gives me a sense of purpose and my co-workers are the funniest people ever. I enjoy working here.

Love dept: Let's not talk about that one this time around, shall we?

So that's it. My current update. Toodles!!!

I carry you in my heart

I haven't written in a while. I know I don't really have a lot of followers, but I still keep writing. Maybe it just keeps me sane. The job is still going well. I'm appreciating having to work for something every day and I hope that it stays like this for a while. I still haven't looked for a teaching job. It's more nerves than anything else. I am putting it off, but eventually I will have to get my head out of my butt and do it.
I am thinking of starting another project. Maybe use this blog to promote things. Like fashion, or make up..jewelry, arts and crafts; something I'm good at.

As far as the friend department, I have the same ones I've always had minus some of the fake ones that tricked me and made me think they were real. Zerina and I have become really close and I really appreciate that. We are even moving in together. 4 more days to that!!!

Family department: War has begun! Step-dad is back to his horrible, Hitler, cynical ways. His tumor has shrunk. Yay. But his ego, pride and douchebaggeriness has increased. Not appreciating that at all. I had an accident in his car on the way to pick up Anel. Someone hit me in the back, and slid me into the car in front of me. Not my fault at all. (minor scratches on the car). I got yelled at, threatened, called names. People still don't realize how that makes me feel or has made me feel like for the past 20 years, but I'm tough. I'll make it through.

Love department: I really like my boyfriend. That's about it on that subject. :)