I started writing this on 10/24/21 and then never finished it or posted it because it seemed the more I thought about dating, the worse the actual dating reality got. And it still is that. People are afraid to be vulnerable, they want easy and no one is willing to put work in anything that looks different from their reality.
I started writing this a year and a few months ago.. and never finished it. So I want to offer an ending now.
"So, after I got back home from the gym, I immediately jumped in the shower and started to process the day. As always, I do my best thinking in the shower. I have recently acknowledged that I would like to find my life partner and have gone on several dates, today's thought process has been mostly about it. Also, it's been a blast getting over fucking feelings for the last guy I tried to date. Emotionally unavailable idiots who lie and cheat seem to leave a mark more so than people who actually treat you right, but I digress.
So, my thinking in the shower was mainly on me being old-fashioned and wondering if anyone else felt like I do. When it comes to dating, I am a geriatric millennial. I still make phone calls, I refuse to use a lot of social media and I prefer to know where I stand when I am seeing someone. I would like none of this "talking or hanging out" nonsense. That is just messy and asking for someone's feelings to be hurt. If you don't set clear boundaries, how the hell are you supposed to know what's going on? Now, I am not saying you have to immediately jump into marriage, but why not make your intentions clear? If you'd like to just be friends with benefits, tell me. I would like to be able to make an informed decisions whether I'd like to fuck you part time. Mine is not a community vagina; I don't want to sleep with other people through you and to be obvious, you are putting someone's a few people's health in jeopardy (whether sex is safe or not)."
And scene! Yes, I have had situationships- you know, the one or two month dating spiels where the guy lies to you and talks to other girls. Or gets too emotionally attached and runs from anything hard. No one likes to be "tugged by their nose" as my countrymen like to say (it's a bosnian saying and the translation is much better).
Toodles! I hope everyone has a great weekend!!!
